Dear Siksha Gurudeva, please kindly accept my most humble obeisances; all glories to Srila Prabhupada; all glories to your good self for your own life of dedication in service to Prabhupada and Krishna; all glories to all the devotees of Lord Chaitanya.

Please kindly forgive me for choosing to extend my offering via this sight, rather than personally attending the online gathering or being personally present. Truth be told: I don't really feel like a disciple of any sort. Since I have never been good at praising others, I will simply share what I have already shared so many times in the past: leaving all the eloquent rhetoric to those devotees who are truly worthy of being your disciples.

I very am confident of your kindness, your mercy and your shelter, as you have shown many times over in the past. When I was in my darkest moments of service and lacking in association, you came to our home; and not just once or twice, but every time you visited Boise. It was a godsend to be able to have those home programs during your visit. There was so much devotee association, kirtans, prasadam in those times: who could ask for more? Indeed, you are like the ocean of mercy (karuna sindhu) that we chant every morning. I know that there are many others who are more sincere and more qualified than I, who can testify to these facts.

I can only add that my sadhana continues. Every day I reflect on my good fortune to worship my Deities, chanting prayers and engaging in japa. Everything that I do in my life is centered completely on my sadhana, as if I am addicted to the routine. I have to remind myself that Krishna could very easily remove all such opportunities within a moment, and without warning: then what would I do? Most of the mornings my japa is done before I chant guru puja and read Srimad Bhagavatam. I still keep up attendance with the online classes from Hawaii. Books still go out when driving for Uber. In fact, many passengers have expressed how they feel it was destiny for me to have been their driver because of our conversations on philosophy and life in general. They have such a great need to express what is in their hearts. Some say that "this was the greatest Uber ride they have ever had."

I don't believe that I would have such experiences if you weren't so merciful to us, inspiring us with your kind association to just keep to this process of hearing, chanting and always remembering Krishna, and never give it up; to always stay in good association with devotees. And you are always steering us in the right direction, to do the right things so that things can be made right amongst devotees here. It's no wonder we chant every single morning "yasya prasadam bhagavat prasado; yasya aprasadam na gati kuto api."

As you requested, I have included some pictures of our Deities. The outfit in these pictures is brand new. It was made by one very nice mataji living in India. We never met and I know absolutely nothing about her, except that she is an aspiring disciple of Srila Jayapataka Swami, and she had a very sincere desire to do this service. What more proof do I need that Krishna hasn't given up on me, although I so envious and offensive. All of this is only possible by the grace of your good self, and Krishna. I will close here, hoping that you will continue to extend your mercy to us.

On behalf of my wife and I:

Your lowly servant,

Balabhadra dasa

HpSwami - AgtSP.

Paoho. We go nice places but in large degree we go where we are invited.

You are inviting Gauranga to visit your Ashrama by your devotion to your Sadhana, no?

When He comes he will solve all problems!

Patita pavana.

You are strong Goswami in many ways!

Why go any place other than back to Godhead?

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