Hare Krishna, Maharaja

Please accept my obeisances

All glories to Srila Prabhupada and to you

I had a somewhat intriguing experience and I want to clarify this situation that is causing me a lot of confusion.

While dancing before the deity, I visualized myself as a gopi or girl in the spirit world.

One night, while thinking that perhaps I was a gopi, I felt as if “Krishna” came and wanted to have physical relations with me.

This “entity,” I don’t know what kind of entity it is, had such relations with me, just as if it were a person. My body was agitated but now that I remember it, I feel disgusted by this situation. It’s like a kind of rape, I don’t know.

This was a real thing, not a dream. In fact, I was writing while it was happening, as if this being were speaking to me through my mind.

I didn't see anything, I didn't hear anything, but I felt it.

Now I'm stable, back to normal, but it's still there, bothering me sometimes. But I no longer believe in "that gopi who has physical relations with Krishna."

Do you think this was a ghost or some other kind of entity?

Thank you.

Your servant, Rama Krishna Dasi

HpS/ASA - AgtSP. I do not know. The material energy is unlimited.

When we are engaged in Sankirtan with Srila Prabhupada, in the company of his nice, disciples, then we have a good perspective on reality and can make some practical judgement about our subtle and gross experiences.

Adjust your life so that you can have such Kirtan association morning and evening daily.

There are Bhutas, Pretas, Yaska, Rakshasa, Vininayaksas, so many subtle beings.

It is just like a rat trying to understand the variety of people, cats, dogs, horses, pythons etc that there are in the world and then having experiences with them.

There is not limit to how much your can become fixed in your original K. C. experience.

Learn who you are now, build your character and preach.