Please, Guru Maharaja, accept my humble and respectful obeisances at your lotus feet. You are so merciful! You give us thousands of opportunities to purify ourselves, to listen to you, and I, for so many stupid reasons stemming from my bad karma, fail to take advantage of them.

All glories to Srila Prabhupada!!! All glories to You my adored Spiritual master!!!

Today I woke up at 2. My body has gotten used to it, (due to his mercy Gurudeva and that of the devotees who taught me by example), to wake up at this hour, I feel calm, in peace, I can sing calmly. Sometimes Franco also wakes up at the moment, but especially at 5 he comes to greet us. He rests in his work workshop he is building.

I always put a cell phone in a very high window from where I send a signal to another phone that is inside the house. So I can connect by being inside the house. The phone that Watsap has is the one that I go up to the high window almost like the roof of the house and that sends a signal. Today, foolishly, I thought: I am going to concentrate well on singing rounds and then I look at the messages. And you had done the Goto program!

I thought about the importance of time. Today is the appearance of Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur!!! I love his songs, his devotion!! I infinitely thank you and Srila Prabhupada! Thanks to you we can honor these days! But one day as important as today, I lost your Gurudeva association at the most beautiful and quiet time for me. How can I wait to sing only the Holy Name?... I just have to run after you! I was very stupid. But I learned this: I should never think that I can. It is only thanks to his blessing that I can sing with determination. Gopal used to wake up quickly but now, sometimes, I have to fight to wake him up and I don't want to bother him either, I wish he was something beautiful and natural for him. It's amazing, but when he falls asleep early he wakes up alone.

You are so merciful, GuruMaharaja, that you are present on these applications like WhatsApp to stay in touch with Your disciples. Before, I had gotten used to doing everything alone, due to my lack of internet connection, but also to the temple. There is a program here twice a month, on Sundays. We never go! Because on Sundays the buses pass every one or two hours, and Franco doesn't want to go because of that and worries a lot about me going alone because waiting for the bus there is dangerous; there are no people. So that's why I don't go. I resigned myself to doing everything at home; I know that's okay too. Because I resigned myself to this, I think maybe that's why my mind got used to thinking that I can do it alone.

This could be a response to your instruction that we go to the Sandya Artik to the temple!

I used to suffer a lot from this situation because in Peru I was so used to being with devotees. But then I was glad to understand that my Govinda put me in this situation, and it's perfect for me now. So I try to make the most of what I can. But these imperfections in my mind can arise, like believing I can do it alone. Today Govinda showed me this. He is always so merciful!! He always gives us opportunities to learn! ❤️

I hope you recover Gurumaharaja! of his throat and the headache... I can only continue singing for you. Thank you eternal for being our spiritual teacher. Today after singing basic rounds and while I started singing Sri Guru Astaka, I fell asleep for 30 minutes and when I woke up I saw: You had done Japa Joe!! I'm very sorry, but I learned: I can't do it alone! Please forgive me if I committed an offense in this letter, unintentionally:

Japa Prati Jalpa Radha Devi dasi

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