Hare Krishna, Siksha Guru Maharaja, please kindly accept my most humble obeisances; all glories to Srila Prabhupada; all glories to your good self for your own exemplary years of selfless devotional service; all glories to all the devotees of Lord Chaitanya.

My rounds are done this morning, and Bhagavatam class from Hawaii will commence soon. It's only now that I am able to find time to write some thoughts.

My mind is still occupied with recollection of your most recent visit to our home here in Boise.

As I had mentioned during prasadam, your association, along with the association of the other devotees present at that time helped to make our home into an ashrama once again.

It brought back memories very nice programs of hearing and chanting and prasadam with devotees very kindly blessing our home with their association.

Now it seems like we are strangers to them: the same Vaishnavas who were always welcomed to our home.

It's so painful that I can't really put it into words, and I'm trying to understand how it came to this.

I try to chant nice rounds every morning: sitting quietly in front of my altar, with my ears plugged for amplification between the ears, with incense burning, and some quiet flute meditation playing for ambience.

I feel very lucky to have such an domestic environment for my devotional service. A couple of Bhagavad gitas went out this week to passengers. One was a successful gentleman who seemed really lost in his life. He gave an extremely generous tip for accepting Bhagavad gita. The other was a girl who had an emotional breakdown, and seemed to be somewhat disoriented, as if under the influence of some drug.

She happened to see a copy of Bhagavad gita and asked if she could have it. I took it as Krishna saying "give it to her," and so I did. She was very grateful whilst she continued crying.

There is so much more that I want to share; so much more that needs to be said, but I fear that I will annoy you with a long drawn out letter. I can see from my own practical experience how my whole spiritual existence is dependent on the shelter of the spiritual master. Please kindly forgive me for my many offenses. Please don't give up on us: my wife and I. How should we live, where shall we go and what should we do if we lose such kindness, shelter and mercy?

Your lowly servant,

Balabhadra dasa

HpS/ASA - AgtSP. Dhrtarastra was painted as a very nice person in many ways, but he had some bad results from previous activities. Karna was also a great person. Krsna glorified him in front of Arjuna after he died, no?

In some aspects I feel that we are all pushed by Krsna to realize the He is our only friend.

Every other friend is just a friend in that relation to him.

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