Dear Gurudeva, please accept my humble obeissances, all glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I hope you are well. It is with great embarrassment that I contact you. I don't know why I have this type of anartha, but I am very neglectful with my seniors. I barely call my parents, I don't communicate with my leaders, and I don't provide you with the minimum report.

During this time that I have been in Colombia, I have tried to preach, despite being in maya, to maintain some kind of contact with Krishna. It's a spiritual selfishness for my own benefit, organizing Sunday programs in homes, namahattas, etc., despite not being steady in my rounds and principles. However, these Sunday programs kept my consciousness and connection with the movement of Mahaprabhu and Srila Prabhupada alive to some extent.

This activity became bigger and bigger, and now it has become an ISKCON temple in Medellin. Literally, Lord Krishna did it, since I am not qualified and I even kept saying, 'I don't have time to open a temple!' But Krishna is very merciful.

Similarly, He has been giving me a wake-up call: 'Write to your guru!' First, Prabhu Acarya showed me that you had talked about me. Then, Maturesh Prabhu, the GBC, also spoke about you and your close relationship. Once again, I realized it was a sign. Now, Tattva Vit Gaura prabhu from Peru has arrived, staying here at the temple, and he has spoken a lot about you to me.

So, Krishna pushes me, as I am so undisciplined. Please forgive my terrible behavior and lack of seriousness. I would like to improve this anartha, but I don't know how.

I also want to tell you that my wife and I separated two years ago.

I would be happy to perform any service for you. Please tell me if there is something that I can do.

Please forgive my offenses.

Your useless servant, Jambavan Das

HpS - ASA --- Hare Krsna.

We are a long way from perfect in keeping communication from our side also, but as you say, we try to do something and then know that KRSNA is very serious in pushing us forward!!

Hope your relation with your wife is Krsna conscious. It is eternal. Transcendental. Of course, it may be handed to Krsna in situations like Sannyasa etc. then He can call us to do some work in the relationship as He requires, no?

We do think of you all and it is so nice to hear from you.

What is the general status of your Diksa vows? Do you chant a minimum number of rounds daily?

Thank you.