Please accept my eternal obeisances to the blessed dust of your merciful lotus feet.
HpS - AgtSP. We can recognize the dust of his lotus feet and through them the situation of others.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
All glories to You, who always guides us toward our eternal service!
I hope you are well and happy in the company of our merciful Sri Gauranga and Sri Nityananda!
_ Because a letter from Your disciples is a window into how each of us is doing, I assume that You read my letter before I edited it for the last time, and thus I broke the window through which You can mercifully see me and help me.
_ I edited it, 1 trying to make it shorter, because whenever I write I worry knowing that Your eyes are strained reading each line we write and 2 because it seemed to me that You feel more comfortable when I only touch on one topic in each letter.
I say these last two paragraphs with the "confidence" of the intuition I have, just like before getting on that bus where that person threw the stone at us, "something" ☺ my Krishna... I felt a voice telling me: get off here, we're going to do other things, it's still early, get off, get off, get off now, now... and I thought at that moment... it's my stupid mind... And when we walked a few blocks and I heard something like a bomb exploding and the windows shattering!!!..... I said to myself... it wasn't my mind!! .. it was You!!! and I ignored You.
That day I wrote my letter where I tried to comment on the prasadam you requested at Anvesaka, I was going through a very, very difficult time, although I believe Krishna was smiling.
My heart was absolutely aching, and I don't think I expressed myself well. Please forgive me. Sometimes I tolerate harsh words (I'm still learning to see a person's heart and not just their words), but they come from kind-hearted people who, in reality, are placed there by my Krishna for many purposes, such as for me to learn how to live in this world and to detach myself from everything other than Him. He is everything. It is to change my perspective... and that is and was His mercy at that moment. So, while I was recovering from this... I wrote.
Thank you for praying for My Gurudev. If I understand little by little, it is only because of You.
Afterward, everything resolved successfully, but I'm beginning to understand how truly difficult this world is if we stop seeing Him for even a moment. His wish, that is His love!
Adored Gurumaharaja:
What I like most about the day is listening to You live, Your chanting, Your rounds, Your words... The truth is, sales had gone very, very poorly for me those weeks, and I couldn't charge my phone. And when I could, the 4 degrees below zero cold arrived, and I couldn't leave the house at that hour when You do mangalartik (because I only have a signal outside the house in the yard).
I tried to see the good in not having internet. It makes me appreciate Your company and that of the Vaishnavas more and more.
Once, when I took a cold bath at the beginning of winter, I couldn't move my back or neck, and I got scared. I want to keep dancing! So I try to protect myself from the cold... Sundays are too nectarean, the pastimes narrated by Prabhu Upendra and You! I downloaded the classes, but feeling the thrill of knowing You are live at the same time is very exciting. Truly, Krishna consciousness is the most exciting thing I have ever felt and feel in my life. The sweetest thing for my heart.
I love knowing You are there; I log on especially to download as many of Your classes as I can, Your WhatsApp Anvesaka, Your blog, and read Your responses. I really like meditating on them, trying to understand what You want to tell me. Sometimes I think, if I don't understand what You want to tell me and You leave soon... how will I know what You meant? I will find my Krishna in my heart, through Your beautiful name. You will tell me... how will I thank You? As You say; I will see You again!!!...!!! Jay Sri Gurudeva!!!
Every word You say is important to me. "Travel with us" 🙏❤ Of course, that's what I want most, even if it's only through the internet.
This communication is truly good and necessary for me ❤, but it can never compare to the fortune we had of being able to see you and be blessed with your transcendental gaze. You connected me with Srila Prabhupada and our sweet Krsna. Eternal thanks!!!!! Beloved Gurudeva!!! 🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤
I'm sending you this bhajan in this tune... I find it so, so beautiful... I hope you like it:
https://youtu.be/2x1oAr2Rw9o?si=2y5RL66t3vG-d5Ie
HpS/ASA - Thank you! Please send more as you find them.
We feel there are mistakes in matching the meter with the meaning.
Meaning.
MEANING.
M E A N I N G.
Trying to please your sweet heart by always serving and worshipping that sweet dust that emanates from your immaculate lotuses, like your feet, Jay Gurumaharaja!
All glories to Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur, I ask you, Srila Prabhupada, to ask Him that I may dance to His adorable songs 🎶🙏❤
HpS/ASA - Expressing the meaning of the words!
Your eternal servant:
🔥 Japa - Prati - Jalpa Radha Devi Dasi
Hopefully your eternal friend Srila Prabhupada's ISKCON!!!!
Best wishes for your family!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LVmzEJJ6AAY
