Rama-narayana Das writes,
"It, sex desire, is so strong, all my spiritual crises in which I have wanted to stop being a devotee have been caused by my sexual desire, in fact these last few days I have gone through another similar crisis, but again I have regained spiritual sanity."
ASA - It is adi-rasa, fundamental mellow.
Have you tried reading the Rasa lila descriptions from the KRSNA book when the material reflection attracts?