Hare Krishna Maharaj,

Please accept my humble obeisances forever on. All glories to you, all glories to his divine grace Srila Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada.

I believe in Bhaktivinoda Thakur's writings, he once told an analogy: That describing a world without time in words - was akin to a mute man trying to describe the taste of a mango 🥭 to someone who had never tasted it.

A lot of time has passed since I first met you in this material lifetime. 14 years actually. 14 years I still wonder why your spiritual master cast his mercy down on me! I've been stuck interpreting his benevolence ever since.. (most recently the last five years ago).

Well, I'm definitely no pretty Hare Krishna 'Disney movie' of a lifetime so far. That's for sure. Material amnesia is nothing to shake a stick at. My real memories are distant, clouded and uncertain (if I'm being truthful).

What holds me back? I am not sure entirely, in truth. Jung said shame was one of the most powerful emotions, and deep down it is that. Fear. It's fear of failure, to not be blessed by Krsna to succeed, even when you ask for Krsna for it. That's tough to accept. Was it because Bhagavan desired such, or I diverged from Bhagavans will? What good is it all if I lost the most crucial favor of the local Vaishnava community?

It seems it goes full-circle. The bhakta is the lost souls first encounter, then comes back to be the most important eternal service.

Well, as HDG stated: "Guru is for questions." And I undoubtedly have seen you as my siksa-guru these past 14 years. I am writing to once more express my great thanks for tolerating my foolishness, troubles and half-heartedness. I'm sorry it wasn't prettier. Yet I had just one remaining question if you'd cast some mercy on me:

What can I do to best serve you and HDG's mission going forward?

HpSwami-ASA -- AgtSP!

What about the Preface to "Nectar of Instruction"?

That is where we orient ourselves?

Following us, 'huber_robinson', on Twitter [X]?

Chanting some regular Jaw Paw?

Know my heart still stirs, it's hard to keep it clean in this world. . I'm also certain I'll find your further guidance in you and HDG's discourse and writings over time (funny how they work like that often times).. and I'll one day hope to be blessed to see you "up ahead" and give my thanks again!

Jaya Sri Radhe, Jaya Sri Krsna, Jaya Vrindavan!

-Your eternally indebted servant-

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