Hare Krishna, Guru Maharaja,

Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet [lettuce]. All glories to Srila Prabhupada. All glories to you Guru Maharaja. 

Guru Maharaja, I am reading Srila Prabhupada Lilamrita, just finished reading the pastimes of Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Prabhupada’s final moments on this earth (Part 4 – How Shall I Serve You). Soon after Srila Prabhupada received a reply letter in December 1936, Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Prabhupada passed away from this mortal world –

Quote from Srila Prabhupada Lilamrita – ending part of Part 4 – How Shall I Serve You 

Srila Prabhupada writes,

Dear Guru Maharaja,

Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet. You have got many disciples, and I am one of them, but they are doing direct service to you. Some of them are brahmacharis, some of them are sannyasis, but I am a householder. I cannot. Sometimes I give monetary help, while I cannot give you direct service. Is there any particular service I can do? 

Two weeks later, Abhay received a reply.

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Abhay at once recognised this to be the same instruction he had received at their first meeting, in 1922. He took it as a confirmation. There was now no doubt as to the purpose of his life. What his spiritual master said in 1922 had not that been a chance meeting. The instruction was the same: “Turn yourself into a very good English preacher. This will do much good to yourself as well as your audience”. 

Srila Bhaktisiddhanta passed away from this mortal world on January 1, 1937. He had been spending his last days reading Caitanya-caritamrita and chanting on his beads.………….................…….

While reading this portion of Srila Prabhupada Lilamrita, I am strongly remembering you Guru Maharaja with a lot of anxiety thinking about the separation we have to feel later after you pass away from this mortal world.

Guru Maharaja, I feel very sad in seeing your health troubles. I don’t know what can I do for your good health. We, a team of devotees, are chanting extra rounds everyday, and we are sincerely praying to Sri Sri Gaura Nitai and Sri Sri Radha Govindaji, for your long life and good health.

We are very immature. We need more of your association. Please live with us little more years Guru Maharaja, this is our humble request. 

In the past many years, because of my foolishness, I was neglecting the chances of having more of your associations in many ways. In the recent past of about 1 year, I have been regularly associating with you through vapu, mails, blog posts, classes, lectures, etc. and from the association, I am finding in myself a lot of positive changes. The sayings of yours for your winding up of the earthly pastimes makes me very upset. It is the saddest news I ever heard in my life. I am still longing for your vapu association for many more years. 

Guru Maharaja, please let me know which seva will make you most happy from this stupid servant of yours. What kind of seva is most satisfying and pleasing to you from a disciple? What are your projects, what is your mission – how can I take part in those sevas. How can I keep myself engaged in the service of you Guru Maharaj and Krishnachandra with full dedication, full enthusiasm and always nonstop. Please let me know and guide me on these confidential topics. And, please bless me so that I shall keep myself engaged in those sevas till my last breath. 

Guru Maharaja, I have started reading Tava Pache Pache. It’s very wonderful. I am continuing my book distribution seva also. 

Guru Maharaja, whatever offences I have committed to you, please kindly forgive and please guide me so that I become pure in this life time. 

Begging for your association as a disciple birth after birth,

Your humble disciple

Manjuali Devi Dasi

Kaptanpur, Silchar, Assam

HpS - Yes, the separation from our gurus, godbrothers, all vaisnava friends can make us very sad.

That will never, NEVER, N E V E R stop!

You think Radha doesn't feel separation from KRSNA?

🙂

Yet, it is not separation for Her.

It is like black pepper in the Kitri.

It is very nice. It must be in proportion.

We must act in this life so that when we meet again in our next life with Nimai in Nadia we will feel like we know each other.

We have met your family, no?

What other Vaisnavas do we know in Silchar community?

When did we visit there?

Hari Das Swami???

What you are doing now is best service to us. Don't change it. Grow it.