Hare Krsna Guru Maharaja
Por favor acepte mis rendidas reverencias
¡Todas las Glorias sean a nuestro muy misericordioso Srila Prabhupada!
Y todas las Glorias sean a usted querido Gurudeva
Deseando se encuentre en buena salud. Gracias por ser la luna llena que alumbra mi camino durante la oscura noche en la que vivo.
Guru Maharaja, en distintas ocasiones usted me dijo “Sri Rama le dijo a Lakshmana; – No existe error que puedas cometer y no puedas corregir” Y Srila Prabhupada dice “El devoto se arrepiente sinceramente de los pecados accidentales que comete, y, por la gracia del Señor, todos los pecados involuntarios que el devoto haya cometido se queman en el fuego del arrepentimiento.”
Yo no me considero a la altura de un devoto, no obstante, me siento sinceramente arrepentida de las palabras ásperas que dije durante un periodo de locura temporal. Y siguiendo sus misericordiosas instrucciones, estoy haciendo mi parte para corregirlo, con paciencia y confiando en que, nuestro muy misericordioso Señor sanará el corazón de las personas a quienes lastimé.
Ahora sé que no hay forma de recoger las palabras dichas, y me pregunto ¿Cómo es que el fuego de mi arrepentimiento sincero quemará el resultado de las palabras ásperas que ya he pronunciado? Al principio creí tontamente que, por solo estar sinceramente arrepentida, todo sería más fácil… pero francamente este es un camino escabroso y en ocasiones muy doloroso. Aunque creo que estoy aprendiendo mucho de él.
Hace unos días mientras estudiaba el SB 1.18 y 19 medite en que: — Maharaja Pariksit, se sintió sinceramente arrepentido de su error, y aun así la serpiente alada termino con su vida. — Sin embargo, él acepto con agrado la sanción impuesta y además obtuvo un GRAN beneficio de ella. Entonces me parece entender que NO debo usar el arrepentimiento como pretexto para querer escapar del castigo. Porque cuando llegue, traerá con él un beneficio. ¿este entendimiento es apropiado? Y ¿La sanción que yo reciba, beneficiará de algún modo al vaisnava lastimado?
Por otra parte — Maharaja Pariksit, fue muy misericordioso al no presentarse frente a Samika Rsi, y lo hizo para evitarle una vergüenza mayor— De este aspecto, me parece entender que, debo tener cuidado para que mi búsqueda de perdón, no agite a la otra persona pues de lo contrario quizá solo consiga lastimarle más ¿Es así? Entonces ¿Cómo podemos respetar el proceso del “vaisnava ofendido” y al mismo tiempo hacerle saber que estamos sinceramente arrepentidos?
Guru Maharaja, por favor discúlpeme por distraerle con estos detalles. Muchas gracias por su misericordiosa guía.
Su aspirante a discípula
Karuna-Sakti Devi Dasi
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Hare Krsna, Guru Maharaja
Please accept my deepest obeisances
All Glories be to our most merciful Srila Prabhupada!
And all Glories be to you dear Gurudeva
Wishing you are in good health. Thank you for being the full moon that lights my way during the dark night in which I live.
Guru Maharaja, on different occasions you told me “Sri Rama told Lakshmana; – There is no mistake that you can commit and cannot correct.” And Srila Prabhupada says “The devotee sincerely repents for the accidental sins he commits, and by the grace of the Lord, all the involuntary sins that the devotee has committed are burned in the fire of repentance.”
I do not consider myself to be of the level of a devotee, however, I sincerely regret the harsh words I said during a period of temporary insanity. And following his merciful instructions, I am doing my part to correct him, patiently and trusting that our most merciful Lord will heal the hearts of the people I have hurt.
Now I know that there is no way to collect the words spoken, and I wonder how the fire of my sincere regret will burn the result of the harsh words that I have already spoken? At first I foolishly believed that, just by being sincerely sorry, everything would be easier... but frankly, this is a rocky road and sometimes very painful. Although I think I'm learning a lot from him.
A few days ago while studying SB 1.18 and 19 I meditated that: — Maharaja Pariksit, he felt sincerely sorry for his mistake, and yet the winged serpent ended his life. — However, he gladly accepted the imposed sanction and also obtained a GREAT benefit from it. So I seem to understand that I should NOT use repentance as an excuse to want to escape punishment. Because when it arrives, it will bring with it a benefit. Is this understanding appropriate?
HpS - Yes. . .
And will the sanction I receive benefit the injured Vaisnava in any way?
HpS - Generally speaking it is another kind of vanity that we have, I have, that I can think that I hurt someone. One factor is that they may just be receiving the reaction for doing just what you are doing in their past life. Even to you.
So, the distress that they are receiving is what they deserve.
Chant and pray, and engage in devotional service. There are things that you know should do. Do them and then by that work your intelligence will become clear how to relate to specific offenses that you have made.
Don't make you life complicated.
Be happy with Krsna as your friend and do the work to reawaken your relationship with him, then your relationship with others will become clear and any adjustments in those relationships will become clear.
Go ahead.
You have a lot of important work that you are supposed to do!
On the other hand — Maharaja Pariksit was very merciful in not appearing in front of Samika Rsi, and he did it to spare her further embarrassment — From this aspect, I seem to understand that I must be careful so that my search for forgiveness does not agitate the another person because otherwise it may only hurt him more, is that right? So how can we respect the process of the "offended Vaisnava" and at the same time let him know that we are sincerely sorry?
HpS - Our answer is in the advice given above. 🙂
Guru Maharaja, please excuse me for distracting you with these details. Thank you very much for his merciful guidance.
Your would-be disciple
Karuna Sakti Devi Dasi
HpS - It is not a distraction. There are at least five more people in the same situation and we thank you for presenting these challenges so we can offer any perspective that we have.
Thank you.
Expecting to hear positive news from you about your Sankirtan and Sankirtan partners.