previous letter https://monkeywarrior.com/detail/12921/
Hare Krsna Maharaj, PAMHO,AGTSP
referring to previous letter
the "fence" context-
we did not say we don't need fence, on the other hand- we don't have fence, we don't know how to build, even if I build it how long it will stand.
fence to us meant VAD- we don't how to stay with wife. we are running here and their to learn , but there is none as magnanimous as you..we don't know should we legally separate from her? legal process involves paying her alimony, so which means we have to earn , the legal process is long in India, it involves the whole family.
currently we stay alone, we work some times for university, we eat no onion-garlic food, but its cooked by random, some times us , some times hotel, some times hawker, some times cook. I know these are local problems but never stayed long at one place, to say we are local of a particular place. So our Asrama is messed up.
We are planning to serve in military for 2 months in a year if we get selected, may be that might help us. Our mind says to imitate life of HpS to some extent, but we know TB is heavy Brahmana, we are not that at all. Some identification and service to this pious land might lead us closer to SPOG.
if your definition of fence is four rules, then we can stay intact, but if the definition is VAD, then we dont know....
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your statement that "Parikhshith will be remembering us", is very important.
frankly we are ready to leave this body, like Dakshayani did, if we just become sure Parikhshith does not want to stay with us. We are 99% sure, he wants to stay, but unexpected can ever happen.
moreover when you will leave the mortal world, we dont see any purpose, may be we might get trained enough, by time of your departure, to remember-live and your vani. Spiritual master stays in Instructions, we can understand it, and have experienced it.
we have increased our hearing from Brahmacharis from GEV, they conduct online classes.
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if you think you, Panch-tattva Pr and me should meet? just ask him to initiate a whatsapp conversation.
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our human life is successful, to meet a gem like you......but room for improvement always stay.
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16 rounds are going, our mind and body remain disturbed or irregular..( or v r succumbing to the bad dog in us)... we hope we can accept first initiation level by Kartik 2022,and might formally register in the university. we do get up by 2am clock average. I wish to follow FMP like you do, but then our ashrama confusion comes in, and we have not seen anybody till now in grhaastha asrama as you are..
we still remember the moment, when you held parikhshith's finger and trolled in GEV.
we are fortunate to give birth to rare soul, and we are suffering because, we identified him with his mother, and lashed ire on him.... so now we are Durvasa, who is begging forgivess.
CMP,SP are most merciful, even if one shows faith in their instructions, but not able/want to follow, they change the world
faithless rascal
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