Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva:
AGTSP, PAMHO
I was eager to write to You a long time ago. When I got initiation back to 2004 I started to be a pujari right away. Besides that I was always enganched [engaged] in the temple service trying to keep good communication with the authorities. And so forth,
Years passed and I do not know if I can use the word "corruption" (you can delete it if you think this word is unappropiate) corruption within some temple authorities. These things affected my utsahan and even if I continued with my service, and I recalled all the things that you had to put up with within all these years in ISKCON my faith is not as strong as yours. I am aware that if I continue chanting Krsna will give me the intelligence to continue with utsahan.
HpS/ASA - AGTSP! Paoho. I think corruption is O.K., if we are willing to apply it to ourselves. Another word might be alloyed . I can see it happening to myself all the time.
Some may fall into vanity.
Some into pizza-fudge.
Some into sexo-illicito,
By Diti was certainly smudged.
Yet it they are still all corruption, alloyed, service.
The the thing that affected me the most was how the authorities handle the repainting of Gaura Nitai!!!!
I sent pictures comparing the deities in the past and now. We can tell the difference, I offer money to cover all the expenses and a team to work. I do not know why they are so stubborn :(
HpS/ASA - Neither do we. 😮
One time Jaya Tirtha Das and one senior Mataji were arguing over how Rukmini Dvarakadisha should be dressed, so they to the quarrel to Srila Prabhupada and as we heard it, he raised his hand with a smile and laughed and said that it was a matter of personal taste. He was not going to get involved.
Maybe that. Maybe something else.
Or maybe I am. The thing is that I have no forces to pursue this. My heart is broken 💔 in thousand pieces when I saw how They look today.
I guess that is time for me to let go.
Moreover it's not just me.
Other devotees do not agree either. But "they have the power"
ASA/TB - Does this apply??? https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/6/18/#bb43711 Can we do a sacrifice to "kill Indra", make disciples who can seize government power in our Yatra, so we can serve Visnu the way we want to serve Him???
My faith in You is intact, but I am trying not to exposure as I did in the past. I listen to your classes but in recordings. I join FMP, my participation in the chat is limited. I know that I am not a top-notch devotee. Nevertheless, today I read a message in Spanish that says: Lo importante no es lo que has logrado sino en lo que te has convertido
"The important thing is not what you have achieved but what you have become" For me the important thing is that I continue being part of ISKCON.
HpS - There are many rooms in the house that Srila Prabhupada is building so that in it the whole world can live, no? So, yes, we will NEVER leave ISKCON. Iskcon has absolute no meaning unless Srila Prabhupada is recognized as the Founder, Foundation, and Acharya, current leading authority.
We all have a right, necessity, to direct communication with him [though so many transparent via media].
Nowadays, for me is more important to keep my spiritual life and my contact with you rather than stand out among the devotees. I have the feeling that I do not have anything to show. I guess in the past I had that necessity to do that. I was immature. Maybe I still am. I just have the duty to tell you.
HpS - Thank you. We are all people. We all feel that the crew is not complete without CMDD and if the authorities see that you have been preaching to a dwarf B'cari who is coming to the Temple during Janmastami festival, they should probably look out.
I want to keep a low profile like Patrak d, Madhumanjari dd. Both are great devotees and serve you, but I I can tell that they are not eager to show off.
I continue giving classes in ISKCON Chosica, and leading kirtan 2 sundays a month
4P
16 rounds ok
Thanks in advance Gurudeva
Trying be your disciple
CMDD
HpS - I hope you have practical faith in us. You have faith in your dog, Ulysses. He will certainly protect you and your sister and cats, but... he is a dog and you do not expect him to do more than that. Jatayu was an eagle and he tried to protect Sita when no one else came forward but he could only do it half way.
Be more enthusiastic to see Gaura Nitai with a face that pleases their Mother's heart.
