All glories to Srila Prabhupada!  

All glories to Srila Gurudeva!  

Our obeisances at your feet.

Dear Gurudeva, Vidagdha and I are in better health. Thanks to you and so many devotees who supported us and prayed for my family. It was a very purifying experience. My case was complicated due to my allergies and lung problems. Now we are only taking medications to strengthen the lungs and immune system in general, ginger, echinacea, probiotics, etc... 

It is very difficult for a mother to think about dying and leaving her children unprotected, but after reading your message, I gradually acquired more intelligence to understand that I am nothing and cannot control anything. My mom died when I was 9 years old and I don't wish the same for my children. But I understand that our only refuge is Krishna; so, nothing bad could come of this situation.

HpS - You are not nothing. You are a little girl in Mother Yasoda's work force and you have to help pack Krsna's lunch or something like that. We are not too big, or not too small. We have something to contribute in this world, drama, and in the eternal world. https://vedabase.io/es/library/sb/1/8/10/ "La madre tiene la gran responsabilidad de brindarle una protección total al niño..."

 It is not easy to say goodbye to this body, your family and everything that identifies you with this life, although we have read about that topic many times. So the days went by, trying to understand my life through this body and accept leaving here soon. 

HpS - Only because we think we are the well wisher of Bhismadeva and Drona acharya. Krsna is more concerned with them than we are. We just need to help Him take care of them. 

One of those complicated days with a lot of fever, physical pain and emotional imbalance, I fell asleep in the afternoon and dreamed of Krishna, the temple deity of Mexico, Sri Madhan Gopal. He asked me to comb him and fix his turban. I combed him, decorated his turban and he looked really so beautiful. Her curly hair, very shiny and soft. All the time he looked at me with so much love. At one point Krishna was no longer made of stone, he came up to me and gave me a hug.

ASA - Srimati Gopi-radha Devi Dasi!!! You are shameless!! 😁 You are writing to us about how unfortunate you are while keeping secret hugs with our Krsna!!

I told my husband and at that moment my heart was freed from all anxiety and fear. I thought that it couldn't be that bad to die and that it was really quite possible to be close to Krishna. My faith woke up. Honestly, I didn't see getting a hug from Krishna as real or close. Of course, with my devoted friends we sometimes talk about what Krishna's hugs would be like. 

I understand that the blessings and prayers of the devotees are very powerful. SG Mahatma Prabhu asked me to focus on living because my children needed me, it helped me a lot to keep going. He always has so much love and compassion to give. So many devotees called, wrote and offered us so many expressions of affection. I wish I could reciprocate with everyone. 

For days I dreamed of many devotees praying around me to get the virus out of my body. I would wake up at dawn very scared, feeling the energy of the devotees. 

Three weeks passed without being able to get out of bed and one day I woke up feeling very good and recovered. At that time, my dear friend (Jahnava) who I have not seen in many years, sent me a message saying that she made an offering to Lord Nrishimhadeva of Mayapur for my benefit. I felt very ashamed for that and for all that you and so many devotees were doing for us. Our only refuge is Krishna and his devotees.

Sorry for my long letter, I wanted to share my experience with you.  

Thank you very much gurudeva for your time and teachings. What can we do for you???  

We pray that you are in good health. 

Japa 16 rounds, gayatri, reading, service to my deities 👍

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Your servants Gopi Radha DD y Vidagdha Das.  

HpS - Respects to everyone. Everyone!! The Vidagdha, the Jaya deva... the kids, who will grow up and cause you even more problems as a grand mama etc.

Sorry slow to answer. We have a lot of service sometimes, and our eyes are getting old. See you in Sankirtana!! Thank you. We feel so much respect for you as a soldier in LC's army.