"Dear Maharaj, PAMHO AGTSP. I'm so deeply touched by how sincerely you are trying to solve problems created by my own anarthas, short comings. I do not deserve at all this mercy, but maybe Krsna is feeling compassionate seeing my struggle and is inspiring you so much that you care so much for us ❤️🙏. Your love is sunshine in our life 🙏. I will and am trying my absolute best without leaving my heart behind to follow every single syllable you may utter for us, so we don't take one minute longer than needed from your utmostly valuable time. You are tolerating us so much 🙏, I just cannot believe the impudence of our hearts. I feel so deeply ashamed of myself that I'm not able to surrender completely to such love 🙏. My heart wants to say, I can do anything for you, because my desire for this loving relationship is so much more valuable than anything else. Im trying very hard to wake up early morning to chant so that I may see clearly how to serve, but am suffering from insomnia, so sometimes after staying up all night i chant a bit in Brahma muhurta and then manage to fall asleep somehow in early morning 🙏. I know this is the only cure 🙏. Still I'm so sinful, I'm aghast that I'm not able to follow _/\o_ this simple advice still. Please pray for us 🙏.

Your aspiring servant,"

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HpS - I, we all, face the same challenges in different degrees, no? Arjuna must have had a little insomnia after cutting off the heads of some of his nephews in the Battle of Kuruksetra.

I can already see Krsna conscious solutions to these conflicts for several different directions that these things might go.

Learn how to get up early and get your rounds done! (Advice to you and my mind).

Exchanging letter with The Better Half now also.