Hare Krishna Gurudeva,

Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

In reply to the previous post about podcasts

https://monkeywarrior.com/detail/12537/

This letter was left unfinished and while at work the kids had seized my computer and probably sent it. Thank you for your feedback.

Yes, I have been a kind of stranger and there's a story to it. After family life got more intense and demanding I couldn't maintain practice and this gave me idea of losing rights to proper disciple guru connection.

HpS - Maybe as Diksa guru, but reason for even more intense relationship as Siksa-guru, Patha-pradarhika Guru.... The Guru who gives us instructions how to get out of the jungle and get on the path!

Plus, distance and technology restricts my sense of how to relate to you.

HpS - Henry James, the Nobel Laureate said that he thought letters were the highest form of literature.

I didn't foresee this many years ago when deciding on asking initiation. There are many things i didn't think of at the time, and it was a passionate thing in a way. So i've had doubt whether i did the right thing of becoming your disciple. I have an honest heart but my mind is, well, mostly foolish and impetuous and also dull.

ASA- Well, we have one, doubt. It seems that it could not have been too passionate. You were following the process for one year before you took initiation, so there was time for practically clear evaluation.

• Is there a God?
• Has He manifest Himself as Sri Krsna, Lord Caitanya?
• If I serve Him will my family, social, physical, psychological necessities all be satisfied in the best possible way?
• What does He want?
• 1728 maha mantras on beads and 4-principles strictly?
• How can I do this?
• 🤔

And as usual things picked up again. . .

🐷 🐵 ASA - Ahh! We were right! We were right!

. . . . and i started connecting to you through prayer and hearing your Daksha talks and now we're here. From the Monks podcast i finally realized that in my approach of presenting KC with others, i share a lot of your mood. A recent job oriented psychology test showed i'm mostly artistic and analytically oriented.

One point i appreciated especially from the Shakespeare podcast was your description of the recurring theme in drama of becoming dhira. For me as a sadhaka a necessary basis for progressing to a next level in spiritual life. It is happening, but it's not that deep yet.

HpS - Deep Dhira comes when you have to be a Manjari follower of our Radha rani and see Krsna flirting with another girl!

Thank you Maharaja.

Hope you are doing well in all respects.

Your servant,

Raghava Pandit das

PS. Greetings from cat Sergei.

HpS - Thank you!!! We feel that you may be thinking of us from too much of a Vapu perspective. As Diksa guru we are just focused on the formal vows. As any service we can do as Siksa guru it is more how we can help you connect your Sankirtan service to Srila Prabhupada. For that you may have many prominent Siksa gurus. We may not be very prominent at all!

Hey you got a cat, but what about your wife and children.??.