Hare Krsna Gurudeva

Please accept my obeisances, all glories to Srila Prabhupada.

This letter will be a report of my current situation. In the last letter i told you my visa is in process so that i can

• go to Switzerland,
• get married with my fiance and
• live there.

I thought it would be ready soon, so i sold all my things, now all my material possessions fit in two luggages,

i leave the temple and went to visit my parents a few weeks,

and after that i wanted to spend a few time alone,

so asked a friend if i can go to her apartment (no one is living there) for a few days.

We received news from migration office,

they think it's suspicious that two persons want to get married without to get to know each other in person first,

and it's very common people get married just because of the visa,

so we are under investigation and im still in this apartment.

TB/BW - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-rZxLQg3Io

I didn´t come back to the temple for many reasons: the room i was in is not available anymore, i decided to start a business project and wasn't feelling well at the temple for a long time. I wrote you about that a year ago, left the temple for almost two months and came back, gave it another chance, it didnt work. Temple's economic and administrative situation make living there very austere for me, i cant handle it. Accept this was very hard, i used to be pujari of Sri Sri Gaura Nitai, went to them and said sorry because i cant stay, somehow i thought cant be there because i´m not good enough to receive that mercy. My heart is crushed because of it. Now my sadhana basically consists in fmp, rounds, manasa puja for my Ladhu Gopal, SB class, reading, two offerings a day. Sometimes it's very difficult to be alone so many days in a row, time to time i go to visit my parents or friends, i can't go to the temple because the idea to go there give me the bitter taste of bad memories, it's sad to connect bad moments to the temple, i´m trying to remember all the good things and to my beloved Sri Sri Gaura Nitai. By the way, i feel very very lucky for many things, Krsna is protecting me and maintining me through many ways, through you, Srila Prabhupada, friends, parents and my fiance. He's amazing, after one year of long distance relationship he still loves me, to this crazy lazy panda. Our backup plan it´s that he comes to my country and get married here. He will come on Kartik, i hope Krsna allow us to see each other soon.

I don´t want to leave without saiying this.

I love you as a person can love someone who gives life meaning and hope, as a person can love someone who teaches you to live, as a person can love someone who reminds you of Krsna every day, as a person can love someone who inspires you to chant the holy name.

Your aspiring servant

Key ear tea duh day v daw see.

TB/ BW - Cool!

The wind blows in the trees and someone on his doorstep he sees.

Krsna is a jealous lover.

Maybe He wants to be sure that you realize any husband in this world is just His representative.

In the beginning there is a tendency to impersonalism, but that is the basis for liberated Rasa, natural life.

News, news, of the days, eventually, in the village were Krsna plays.