Hare Krishna Maharaja

Please take my obeisances

All glories to Srila Prabhupada

(Google translator)

It has been a long time since my last letter, I apologize for this. I know that you have many occupations and I think that my letters or reports may be insignificant and that there are urgent matters that you must attend to.

HpS - Srila Prabhupada said that when he needed to know about someone Krsna would inform and usually externally! Of course, our older godbrothers, sisters are vey good gurus for 90% of the questions.

Maharaja I want to ask you many questions and at the same time none since you always answer them in each class, it is as if every doubt or pain that arises in my heart you know it and in some “magical” way you answer them the next day in your classes.

HpS - Krsna uses the devotees.

I write this paragraph with tears in my eyes as I am very excited because Krishna and Radha give me the intelligence to appreciate you, Prabhupada and each of your instructions. Infinite thanks for all the service you do. It is a great honor for me to have met him in this life.

Lately I have again that sense of urgency that I had when I was a child, I felt and feel that there is little time left and that it is urgent to know God and start serving him in the right way, the time is now!

When I was a child I did not have access to this knowledge or guide but I listened to the heart, now I have the knowledge at hand, I have your guide but my mind and anarthas are the excuse for not following the urge of urgency that is in my heart.

¿How can I deal with guilt and spiritualize it?

You show us what to do and how to do it, yet I don't do it 100% every day (some humans are still scoundrels). I understand that it is a process (little by little).

 Moving forward slowly has helped me to be firm in my convictions, however with each passing year I am more aware that I could have done better and that is where the guilt comes from. I believe that this guilt or low esteem for my service is not helping me to cleanse my mind and heart to better meditate on the holy names of God.

HpS - NOD says that we we should feel bad for our failures, but not 'enjoy' our suffering. Lament to get knowledge, and then go ahead!!

Every time I ask you questions I feel that they are silly since everything is in the books, I should study them better and more every day. Sometimes I find the answers this way and that is why I do not write to you but I need your guidance, although my questions are irrelevant, I feel that I need to hear it directly from you to create that impression in my heart that motivates me to continue moving forward.

I apologize if I have made a mistake and I appreciate your service. I wish good health for you.

Sincerely,

Stefani S. Michelena (Petti)

HpS - We are stupid, but maybe because we have been hit on the head by Maya 25-times we have learned something from the scriptures and you can then get some benefit and only be beaten on the head six times. We hope your students will be even more quick!

Very nice lettes!