Pamho, agtsp.

Dear Guru Maharaj,

I am disciple of HH Bhakti charu Guru maharaj.

I needed to take enough guidance as a part of my spiritual life. So thought to write this letter.

Maharaj fear has been a integral part of my life. So internally I am not progressing or may be I am little puzzled. From childhood still today, I have been survived our of abuse, threat and surrounding taught me many lesson.

In 2015 year we took some hurried decision that for we are repenting now. How I would tolerate and convince my mind to tolerate? We purchased a flat for thinking that we can have our material shelter to protect my wife, who is from a Vaishnav background. My parents threatened her. We were not allowed to go home without paying and expending a lot for a party. Worst was they thought to give us in police custody. I could not tolerate and took that decision to purchase a housing in loan EMI. We have tolerated each single day pain for achieving this. But we could not stay here due to my transferable job.

We are requesting our brother to stay freely and take care, he is not agreed, though he is wasting parents and my earning money staying in Bhubaneswar rented house with friends. Due to not staying there in flat, it is being infected by termites and many problems. We are hopeless how we can compensate if not how we can convince ourself to tolerate.

Each time this representation is killing me.

Plz suggest something for my affirmation, which I can carry forward to obey.

Yours servant,

Diptamurti Das

HpS - Hare Krsna! Very nice to meet you Diptamurti Das. I am not giving suggestion that I have not tried again and again in very painful situations!!! Risked my lie following this solution. Of course it is declaration of Sastra also: Chant Hare Krsna, and Krsns will give you intelligence how to deal with the world. He did not give Arjuna and special weapons. He gave him transcendental intelligence.

Yes, Abhimanyu had to die early in the battle, but there was a reason behind it. Especially if you are approaching Srila Prabhupada, Bh. Caru Swami et al, then you have some sincere consciousness and you should know that Krsna is watching you and as things happen look to them as arrangement by Krsna for you. If He wants you to leave this body like M. Pariksit, then it is time to go and He will protect you.

For any detailed advice you have to talk with people who know you and your situation in detail.

Thank you.

See you soon.