All glories to Srila Prabhupada! All glories to Guru Maharaj HH Hanumat Presaka Swami! Please accept our humble obeisances at Your sweet lotus feet!
Hare Krishna Guru Maharaj,
I write this letter with a lot of pain...regret ...and shame...thought about a lot before writing
HpS - ASA --- AGTSP Paoho.... Can't be much worse than the things we have done and are doing!!
...but not asking for Your advice and help would kill the life out of me. We were attending SB class this morning....3.15.18 ....the mood was so good . HG Banamali Das was giving this beautiful class....at one moment we felt we were at Vaikuntha....then this ugly spat happened ..a senior Bhramachari started arguing with Banamali Prabhu..to the point of offending him...we endured for a while ...silently....I was literally weeping inside....this morning programme was the only little Guru seva that I could afford...and here I am...being subjected to this kind of environment. Some senior congregational devotees requested Prabhuji to continue the class...still this Bhrahmachari kept disturbing Prabhu....more shoutings....more arguments....I could not tolerate anymore....paid my obeisances and got up....said...I did not come to ISKCON to hear this bul####. Guru Maharaj....what must I do when such incidents happen again? I am really disturbed.
HpS - Oh! So sad.... A Madhyama adhkari loves God, avoids the demons, makes friendship with the devotees and preaches to the innocent. An Uttama adhikari sees how everything is related to Krsna, and is proper. Narada Muni encouraged Kamsa to kill Devaki's babies!
So, as Madhyama-adhikaris, we see the devotee and demon are in the same body amongst other Madhyama Adhikaris. So we have to learn the art of avoiding the demon in our classmates and making friendship with the devotee in our classmates.
Some body may have a very intense anger toward black people. Irrational. They may not even be conscious of it. So we have to avoid that unless we can help them by preaching.
In Vrndavana, ISKCON, only Krsna and Balarama kill demons, no?
Everybody else calls, "Hare Krsna, Hare Rama!" when the demons appear, so you should have done that! If Krsna wants to you to use sharp weapons or sharp words He will empower you. He will grab you and you will not be in control. I have seen it happen to me on several occasions. Then the demons, the innocent and devotees being attacked, they ALL feel happy afterwards. The demon thinks, "She said the right thing. I needed that", or "I don't agree with what she said, but it was right for her to say it".
O.K?
Chant Hare Krsna, talk with senior devotees, if your should make and apology do it.
We are exactly 3 years new today...... joining Srila Prabhupada's mission ...with Your mercy Guru Maharaj. Since last week we are washing Srila Prabhupada's dresses daily with Mataji Niscintya Nitai DD and Mataji Nandimukhi DD. HG Ramanuja Das Prabhu and HG Jaibhima Prabhu Das have been a great inspiration for us. Thank you Guru Maharaj for giving this sweet service..the moment we touched Srila Prabhupada's dress..our heart melted...so soft ..and so full of love...thank you dear Guru Maharaj for giving us this priceless mercy of serving Srila Prabhupada
Once Guru Maharaj asked whether saving milk for Krishna is better ...or feeding Krishna....and that time Guru Maharaj wrote...with time Srila Prabhupada will reveal ....today with conviction it is clear that feeding Krishna is more important! Thank you Guru Maharaj...All glories to Srila Prabhupada....All glories to Guru Maharaj HH Hanumat Presaka Swami!!
Tomorrow is Republic Day of India.....we are going to Toubul to offer some Vaishnava seva....kindly help us to serve the vaishnavas better..
Your unworthy servant,
Sarada Gaurangi DD
