Respected Guru Maharaja,

Hare Krishna. Please accept my humble obeisances at your feet. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

Thank you for the text message this morning. Sugopi, Sundari-radhika and I are missing your regular association and fortunate are those in the distant lands/time zones that have your association. Yet we are trying to lick the lotus feet of Krishna's literary incarnation in the morning but it's not the same as hearing your voice filled with devotion, faith, simplicity and clarity. It is very refreshing to hear you on Saturdays but the rest of the week is dull.

I some times get frustrated that I am so sinful and unfortunate to take birth in this age of Kali which robs whatever little bit of mode of goodness that exists around. So many sinful and un-sastric things are accepted as normal in this age of Kali!

Yet as it is said in https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/1/18/7/ Maharaja Pariksit was not envious of Kali and Srila Prabhupada points out many benefits and emphasizes chanting of the holy names and recitation of Srimad Bhagavatam. Bhagavatam recitation is not the same without your presence. My jnana is in place but dhyana is extremely poor. Even when chanting my mind races towards analyzing things, sometimes material and sometimes spiritual. I am struggling to stay focused while eating the sugar candy and the jaundice is not disappearing. I wonder how long it takes before the all attractive makes His name attractive to a fallen soul like me?

I wonder when my heart becomes a suitable place for His residence? Please give me mercy so that I will relish the holy names and Srimad Bhagavatam as the most valuable treasures of my life.

I look at this blog regularly and read the news letter. I try to catch up with the pearls on the twitter and they are great! Couple of weeks ago your tweet inspired me to read the incident of Gopinatha Pattanayaka. It was bewildering but also humbling to see how Maha Prabhu saved him due to his relationship with his exalted brothers - Vaninatha and Ramananda.

I don't see the latest news letter yet so I am using the last known code in the title. Thank you very much for your time in reading this letter.

Your insignificant servant

Srinivasacarya dasa

HpS - Letter just went out. We are struggling in the middle of the mess just like everybody else. Just as you have administrative problems in you local Yatra, there are problems just as difficult at the GBC level. Oooof. Only solution is to join Srila Prabhupada's Sankirtan.

What are you studying in your daily classes?

Here is has been instructions of Bhismadeva. Is good audience. Intelligent, about 25-devotees each morning. The window on the spiritual world is there and we can enter it and get realization of the situation. When was the first time Bhisma met Krsna? How old was he when he renounced marriage? We began to get some realization of Bhisma's personal understanding of Krsna at the moment of His death.