Perplexities urgent

4 years, 7 months ago by candra108_mukhi in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva

AGTSP PAMHO

HAPPY SRI KRSNA JANMASTAMI


I was not writing on the blog due to I do not have anything worthy to report. My designation as a vicepresident of the legal board was for me totally unexpected and challenging. I acceped just because You kind of asked me that. 

I have to be totally honest with you. I guess that subconsciously I kind of drift apart from temple activities. because I associate it with all the bad and sad situations that I have lived. It has been a long process of healing and forgiveness 


I am very much material entangled. I do not have any desire to go to India. I know that You always advice us that we can find our enthusiasm in our intelligence. But for me is really difficult. Moreover. I am not going to put any details here but the level of corruption is unbelievable. How does Srila Prabhupada feel if He witnessed all this? :(

Others are opening new centers telling others in Iskcon are offenders, rapists, etc 


I feel very discouraged. Tomorrow I will try to feel Krsna in my ❤️. He is our only friend 


I do not know what He wants from me. 

This letter I guess it is kind of a catarsis


See U tomorrow at FMP

Thanks Gurudeva

Your servant

Chandramukhi dd

HpS - AgtSP. Paoho. I don't know of any cases of leaders in the institution raping people and not being expelled, turned into the police, but it is a big institution, includes Lithuania!

I am pretty sure that there were illicit relations going on with the all women's Sankirtan parties in the middle seventies just before Prabhupada left, and historically in Gaudiya movement there have been deviant branches, "gurus"who did things that we can't even discuss.

Sridhara Swami said that this is the material world. It is rare to find something good what to speak of spiritual!

So we fight like Draupadi, Kunti, and get on the inside story. See what Krsna is doing.

Writing to the Blog is VERY intelligent. ISKCON is devotee friends. Srila Prabhupada, and the institution like you have at work.

🙂

Fight for Krsna 🐘🐘🐘