Thyphoid days, gift from Vrindavan

Almost a month after returning from Vraja, running to class my body collapses in vomit and pain. for the next days I watched almost as a third person how my body was becoming weak. 

The last 3 days before I got my IV treatment I couldn’t stand from bed, my skin was itching and red from all the blood capillary explosions.

I was rejecting all liquids, so even drink water or soup was painful and immediately rejected. 24hrs for a week my GIT had painful cramps. At some point even the sip of water taken along with my pills was vomited leaving a biter taste in my mouth and the disgusting odour coming from the body. I was really a bag of trash as Sastra says, the body was the disease.

I couldn’t move from bead to bead when I was attempting to chant. Most of my mind was focusing on the bodily condition. I didn’t pass the test. Most of the japa was done on clicker, just mumbling the Names.

And the mind start to play games. I realized that I ask for krishna’s help to recover and to stay, why not to just go to his eternal service? I talk to Him just until I couldn’t handle myself. But which power I have? i didn't have ANY actual achievement! so irrelevant at this point. I’m attach to pride, recognition and knowledge.

At this point my mother was injecting medication 3 times a day. With a bunch of liquids and a Srila Prabhupada japa recording on my window. Mom was able to take me to the hospital for IV medication. 

Nobody was able to really help. No husband, no mother, father o even doctors. Medication just took me back to my asymptomatic diseased stage, the Body.

By Govinda Pramodini

HpS - Amazing!!! Hare Krsna. You are our leader. Two more letters.