Hare Krsna or Franciscan???

4 years, 11 months ago by candra108_mukhi in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krsna Belovede Gurudeva:

AGTSP, PAMHO

It is a pleasure to meet U almost everyday at FMP. My heart was so happy when Carlos Rold told me that U asked for me during FMP. Actually as I told U on Tuesdays I do not join the meeting because I have classes until 10:30 pm and I arrive to late at home, and on Tuesdays I have classes early, sometimes I do not join because I am too tired.

I take care of my mom, the nurse helps but, my mother is more comfortable with their daughters. I cook for her, now I am better at that service hahaha. I talk with her, she is not praying she is kind of resentful. It is very tough but it is my duty to serve her, she took care of me many years, it is my turn. I am purifying also. In summer, I was angry with myself because I was taking care of my mom but actually, I did not want to, but now I am doing it out of love. It is a huge experience to see how the tumor is growing, and watch all the suffering is overwhelming sometimes, but I try to just give her love, she is a great soul, she needs another body I hope Krsna put an end to her suffering soon.

At work I teach a new course “Environmental Education” I love it, we talk about how to take care of the earth, we are going to make social help projects. I feel good teaching.

I continue giving gem therapy I like to help. I read about astrology but I just know the basis things. One bhakta called me a witch hahaha I am honored.

 Sraddha:

On January and February You were traveling, my mother almost left her body in a traumatic way. I saw again the movie Brother Sun and Sister Moon, and something touched my heart, I even bought a deity from Saint Francis, but back then, my faith was not so strong. But at nights when I was really sad and mostly tired I arrived to this priest who is a Franciscan Youtuber. I feel really good following the Franciscan path I am now more aware of being a good person, BUT I HAVE TO WORK A LOT WITH MY PATIENCE, I tend to offend people with my words specially to my sister L

I started to follow this Franciscan Youtuber. who I mentioned in an old letter. He helps me a lot. I like his preaching. Actually, all started in summer with the movie brother sun and sister moon, I had watched it before but this time it was different, but it did not last too much. I was a good girl just a couple of days, haha. I also got a Saint Francis deity, and then the priest appeared I guess He is my Siksa also. I am fixed on SP ‘s path, Krsna ‘s path but I guess I am now a Hare Krsna /Franciscan or something like that I am more aware of being a good person now. I am more Krsna Conscious. I guess that U are right I was a nun in my last life, but in this life I wear designer clothes hahaha. I guess that now I am going to have more criticism than ever, but is how I really feel right now.

I do not go to the temple. In Wilson the things are worst, the temple is empty, many offenses, injustices, and even robberies to devotees, they exploit them, they do not cultivate them. I am judging sorry L, but I do not feel inspired to go, Chosica is too far. Excuses, sorry again

My only association is FMP I am too busy, and tired

Am I ok?

HpS - No, but we are a little worse.

Thanks Gurudeva for always being there. Sorry for being an embarrassment for U.

I am attaching a youtube video that I like it so much

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZp8tc3nwic

HpS - Hmmm. He looks a lot like Patrak Das, no???? Hmmmm. Deficil seguir todo el Espanyol perfecto, pero basicamente. Cuantos veces menionca el Nombre de Dios? Hmmmmm? Nombre de Christo? Hmmmm? Pues podemos decir es el primero video. Un invitacion a la gente ser un Santo. Es bueno, no? Pero siento necesitamos Senor Caitanya quien es Dios, deidad de San Francisco quien ya nos da la Ciencia de Krsna.

Hmmm. Tengo 13-rondas. Es un desafio cumplir mis rondas. No tengo mucho energia. Ojos fallando, pero "Hare Krsna", "Hare Krsna" en frente de hermosa, gran pintura de Prabhupada y hay una sendero adelante.

Era interestante enviar unos escritos de SB a esta humilde monje sin identificar de India y ver sus comentarios.

Krsna doesn't waste our skills. If we feel obstacles they are Krsna trying to move us in the right direction full of enthusiasm and significance. Even one inch of progress in your mother's philosophical comprehension will be eternal. Keep looking for ways to communicate the truth to her.

Trying to be your disciple

HpS - Trying to be Srila Prabhupada's disciple and your disciple. You have many qualities that ALL of us respect. Go to Wilson sometimes to dance with Gaura Nitai. Invite them to come to your ashrama????

Candramukhi dd