Hare Krsna dear Maharaj,

All Glories to Srila Prabhupada!

Please accept my humble obeisances!

I am not sure if you've read my last message. You responded to 2 parts but not the entire thing. I have copied and pasted it to the end of this message just in case. I had some questions there. Sorry for any inconvenience Maharaj. I know I am very annoying XD.

HpS - NOT IN THE L E A S T!

I have begun Uni now. We are 6 weeks in and I utterly dislike like my course.. I have had as many breakdowns as you can think of 😆

. Mainly because I don't really enjoy the course content - I am studying the Bachelor of Business Management. I actually got accepted into the dual degree with Bachelor of Arts but I dropped that before my course begun. I thought I didn't really need it (since I don't really know what I'm doing anyway) and any extra time at Uni is seen to me as quite unnecessary.

Anyway, I have talked to so many people about my dilemma. They've either suggested me to change courses or do this or that, but none of it seemed to really appeal to me. I'm a very confused person. But, as of last Friday after Harinam, I had an epiphany and I thought, perhaps I should just stick out my course (even though I may dislike it) and just accept all the opportunities that Uni offers me. And on the side, I can do all the activities I am passionate about and hopefully everything will fall into place. I hope this thinking will last me the next 3 years of my course 😂

HpS - ASA --- To us studying business seems crazy. Seems to us you have a female machine. You should pray to Krsna to send along a great prince on a white horse who will be overwhelmed by your beauty, wonderful voice, clever mind and carry you away to his castle in the sky (and also have place for your mother and sister and brother and aunt and.... so visit). So you should study Nursing at the Uni so that you can bandage his and his soldiers wounds when they come back from fighting dragons.

Of course, this is probably the worst advice you have got so far, but in general look and see if there are any good teachers there and take whatever courses they have.

. Assignments have already begun and I am not very enthusiastic about them.

Besides that, I also attend the weekly 'Urban Monk' program at UQ for students. It's a great program and hopefully that, Harinam and Saturday Feast can keep me sane throughout my course, as did Harinam during Year 12.

I won't blabber on much else for now. I'll save you the sanity.. I know you have much more significant issues to deal with than to read my complaints.. Sorry Maharaj. Anyway, anytime I have a question, I tend to ask you so I'll definitely be messaging some point soon hehe.

HpS - ASA --- Your questions are for a lot people in similar situations. Many people will read these dialogs.

As per my sadhana, I am chanting 12 rounds everyday as of now. Sometimes I do not complete them and I record these so I can catch up later. I know it's not ideal but I'm trying to improve. I hope, by your mercy, I will be able to chant 16 rounds soon with complete faith and conviction, and after that, officially take your shelter.

ASA - At 12-rounds you can marry a Baron. At 16-rounds a prince.

I also went to a Japa retreat recently run by Mahatma Prabhu. He's so sweet and humble and I was really inspired. It was amazing. Sometimes I believe if I could just drop my studies and join the Ashram, then I can concentrate more on Krsna Consciousness. But, since I must study, I have to figure out how to think of Krsna at all times and see how everything is still connected to him and how I may serve him doing my required duties.

I hope your health is in the best condition Maharaj and I pray that you visit Brisbane some time soon. We need some mercy down here (mostly my fallen self actually).

Please guide me. I am too lost.

Your servant,

Lakshmi

HpS - We answered two more questions below. Thank you. Any news from Sriman Raktaka Das?

All Glories to Srila Prabhupada!

Please accept my humble obeisances!

I haven't written to you in a long time..

HpS - We are slow to answer this letter! AGTSP.

Sorry Maharaj. We just came back from India around 3 days ago. All of us got sick within the one week that we were there. I myself am still recovering a little bit. Pity that we got sick there so we couldn't enjoy as much. We were in Vrndavan for 3 days and before that in Ludhiana, Punjab. All of papa's relatives wanted to meet us.

HpS - Yes, people were talking about your visit.

Vrndavan is always nice. Even in 3 days, you can fall in love. I would love to spend more time there but we always have these short trips. Perhaps in the future I may go myself or with some friends and stay in India longer, do some tapasya.

In Azerbaijan, the temple is also very nice. The devotees are very welcoming and everyone is so ecstatic. The mood is quite different there. I can see. Here in Brisbane, the devotees seem dull in comparison. I mean everyone meditates differently so I can't really speak on behalf of anyone but when I saw basically the entire temple jumping up and down during Arati in Azerbaijan, I thought there is something different here. Kirtan should be most jubilant experience, no? Why just stand when you can dance? It really is so nice when you see other devotees dancing in ecstacy.

My mother's family is beyond loving. They're so sweet and kind. We had quite a nice time in Azerbaijan. We spent 3 weeks there. We even drove up to some mountains where it was snowing because all of us kids had a burning desire to see snow. It was soo fun.

Anyways, I hope your birthday/ Vyasapuja was spent nicely with LOTS of Prasadam and wonderful Kirtan. One day, we would all like to attend personally. Hopefully your health is in best condition, Maharaj. We are waiting for your visit to Australia again, please. It will be so nice. We need some awesomeness :) That has been lacking lately!

I am now high school free. Well I have been for more than 2 months now. But it doesn't end there :( I am forced to go to uni and study more. yay. Uni will start in less than a month and my course will go for 3 years - Business. I actually got accepted into a double degree with Business and Arts. But now, I really don't see the point. In fact, I don't even see the point in studying business because it all seems to be basic knowledge and common sense. But, I have to study something at least and Business seems an easy route. I hope that I can achieve something fruitful with this. And somehow dovetail it to Krsna Consciousness... I really need to get my sadhana in check. Right now, I am chanting 12 rounds a day. I'm not sure about the quality but I'm trying to improve. And the timing.... Definitely not in the early morning XD. I need to start rising early. Soon hopefully I'll be chanting 16 rounds Maharaj. Please bless this fool and give her some intelligence so that she may know what is good for her actually.

As usual Maharaj, I have some questions ;)

What happens to the animals that pass in Vrndavan? Are they reborn or do they go to the higher planets?

ASA - We don't know. We think they go to Goloka.

Also, the Brijbasis? Do they go to the same Goloka Vrndavan that ISKCON devotees go to? Becuase their love for Radharani and the Holy Dham is unmatched. Perhaps even greater than some of us, due to their simplicity and generosity.

ASA - We don't think all ISKCON devotees go to Goloka immediately. There are Life Members who eat chicken and initiated devotees who have problems like Daksa.

I had so many questions in mind but that is all I can remember at present XD. Sorry for the trouble. I know I can be very annoying at times (if not always lol).

I wish your health and well-being is in the best condition always. Hopefully your stay in India is pleasant and uplifting :) GAURANGA!

Please accept my most humble obeisances.

Your most fallen servant,

Lakshmi