Hare Krishna dear Guru Maharaja ! PAMHO... AGTSP!!!
Ansewering your questions in the letter I sent to you yesterday https://monkeywarrior.com/detail/10035/
I forgot to told you that they made a Sraddha ceremony on sunday February 17, I did not participate because I was in another city. But I know family is so grateful with devotees and they were amazed with the perspective about the death that the Hare Krishna people have. I read a message that Catalina sent to the devotees and Arjuna sent to me and said the family is feeling better after that day.
HpS - Jaya!! Is good for Rodrigo also. He is not dead and he needs help from everyone here also!
Changing the subject, I really want to receive diksha by you... and I want to receive any thing you want to give to me. I'm doing things good, but I just need to be permanent in doing things right. I just want to be able to please you and I know, and I feel, that I will do that being a good boy... my main problem in life is that I am messy and undisciplined, crazy mind. But now I'm bracing myself.
HpS - Yes. It is like attending classes in the university without being registered.
In a letter you reply to Jagad GD about his feelings about Rodrigo's departure... in your answer you said "I meet Carlos's Guru in Vrindavan..." XD what do you meant ? I think was a very crazy vrajabhasi monkey you saw! XD
HpS - I don't remember exactly, but I think I met one devotee while I was in Vrndavana who came up to me and was very animated to tell me that he had met you while you were in India. You make an impression on people.
I read your letter about marriage... very interesting for me to know some details about your previous life before divorce and before you took sanyasa. I also think that a good advice comes from many advisors, I always ask advices to my trusted people, because I think I can use their orientation to get my victory. But I think that is pretty good, even better, to receive your point of view, because your vision is too much better than mine. I always live in a kind of inner contradiction, because I want to get married but, at the same time, I want to stay single and bracing myself to be a vaishnava monk in the future, when my daughter get married, for example... west paradigm is very very crazy about it. Anyway, I'm not single right now... Krishna sent to me a very nice woman, very connected with Him.
HpS - Prabhupada says that a regulated householder is a married Brahmacari. I've seen that in many cased the lady also appreciates the culture.
Thank you very much, because you are so good with me, I think about you every day in many different moments of each day... and it feels so pretty good, it's kind of like I feel safe just because you exist. I feel safe just thinking about you, it's a very beutiful feeling... All glories to Srila Prabhupada !!
What about FMP?
HpS - We do it wherever we are. Sometimes better, sometimes worse. Then we try each Saturday to join the online workshop and communicate our results and hear those of others. Now in Manipura we are reading from CC Adi about Lord Chaitanya's Appearance.
Your aspiring disciple and servant,
Carlos Rold