Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva:

AGTSP, pamho

umm these days were like a nightmareeeeeee. I was doing my service but I can tell with not a proper mood....I was kind of angry I can not even describe it. I feel so ashmed....

HpS - ASA - - AGTSP  paoho.  Kill 'em all and let the Gopis sort 'em out!

SO many problems....... in pujari ALL the devotees were or sick, or problems with their family, babies KRSNA it seems that the only person who can not have the right to say Heyyyy I have problems, work,a family too, But no Candramukhi do not have the right to say no... buuuu

HpS - Patram, puspam, toyam, phalam...   Krsna just wants a kind word.  A gentle smile if that's all you have.

Then I just remembered your advices CHANT HARE KRSNA HARE RAMA then U will have the answer :)

So I just calm down and chant.... I called P rupanuga I am on vacations now... so I can go and see him to talk about this CEMUL_ VEDAS thing.....

I am worried for NIMSAR... we did not give U any report since so long..... I am really discouraged.... I have many questions also...when is going to be the Bhakti sastri examination for our students??? Do we have to wit until U are here in order to solve our problems??? why we can not do anything if U are not here to guide us ?? why we can not work as a group????

Yugala and I were thinking about Gitajayanti......and we organized a small program well practically she did almost everything... because I had to work....... she gave her BV class in wilson the smaranam of Arjuna.... Krsna has left and Arjuna was remembering Krsna's instructions they recite Catur sloki I just organize the thing and gave the idea....

well I will put all my effort in this CEMUL thing our  preaching is really important....

we will wait for U.. until march but I hope we can work together again....

But in order to be a good part of the group  I have to be well first..... mangal arti, SB, good rounds, and everything will be OK .......

Thanks for always being there U are our inspiration day by day yesterday I had a terrible day and then I turned on my lap top and there it was your invitation for BV jayyyyyyyyyyy hearing U madhu manjari, upendra, namacarya etc was really nice :)

OK let's work hope to listen to U tomorrow :)

SRILA PRABHUPADA KI JAY

Your eternal servant

Candramukhi dd

HpS - ASA --- Jaya!   I get so contaminated.  I was reading from CC and Lord Caitanya, Srila Prabhupada commenting that the first thing to get contaminated is our Smaranam.  We can chant, we can hear, but not with contemplation. Our heart is either dead like an automobile tire or perturbed with the life airs in motion. So we have to chant, chant, chant. Do our Japa at the best time. Get back in the habit. It is offensive to take more service than we can do.  Mother Yasoda is the big-doer, not us! 

Why rotate your service. Let someone else do it one week each month?