Hare Krishna

Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I thought about writing this letter to the yahoo account.

My report for my morning japa..I've been able to get them done by ten about fifty percent of the time. Which is an improvement, but not up to par. Two devotees just left, that means a lot more service for me. Which was already a lot. Once again, I'm looking into just getting a job and moving out of the ashram. Yes, I do want to serve Krishna. But I have to be more honest with myself and say that I'm not sure if I was prepared for a brahmacari lifestyle....

I fell. I had illicit sex with a girl. I'm not sure where to go from here. I haven't told anyone besides you. I am planning to move out. I can't honestly stay in a brahmacari ashram, let alone in saffron robes after this. There is also a chance of us getting married. I'm not sure how it will go. But we are both interested in serving Krishna. We are both motivating to eachother to perform better service, and read. I want to be strong enough to avoid her, or any girl, or maya. But I don't think I am anymore. Now what? I'm more sorry than you know...Please forgive me.

Your worthless servant,

Bhakta Adrian

HpS - ASA -  My obeisances to Srila Prabhupada who has so mercifully given us this connection with Lord Caitanya.   We go where we want to go within the options offered to us by Krsna.           Hmmmm....  Maybe we do know how sorry you are?     Krsna empowers us to do any service that He gives us, but the important thing is to keep on chanting in all conditions.   Yes, of course, communicate with your Temple authorities in a civilized fashion, and yes, probably better to find a situation outside the Ashrama unless the Temple Authorities tell you that they want to keep working with you in the Ashrama in a specific fashion.

O.K?

Keep chanting... ???