DEAR GURUDEVA,
PAMHO, AGTSP, AGTHAPS!
My only shelter are the words that come out of your mouth,
thanks Prabhupada, the devotees, the program, and the rounds.
Before guru-puja, quikly chant one more
I wish this moment would last all day long
if it wasn´t like this
I´ll be doing nasty things.
This is the best I can do,
sorry but,
I can´t even manage to go out on books.
I am breaking down to pieces
let me just dance for the deities.
This is ooh!! so much mercy,
your servant Sananda dd
I just have to learn how to take it.
HpS - <img alt="smiley" height="20" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/regular_smile.gif" title="smiley" width="20" /> AGTSP pamho. In the beginning we all have our good days and our bad days. <img alt="angel" height="20" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/angel_smile.gif" title="angel" width="20" /> <img alt="" height="18" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/36.gif" title="" width="18" /> More important than learning "how to take it" (dhairyat) is learning how to always do something to go up (Utsahan), then "taking it", tolerating will become an active part of it all. Nehabikramo naso sti. If you are "falling apart" it not regresion, it is revealing the disorder that exists below the current level of order.
Get up early, get your rounds done well, full (fool) morning and eveing program (Arati, Kirtana, SB/BG, Dancing. <img alt="" height="18" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/a35.gif" title="" width="18" />) and Sankirtan as you can do it. If you can't go out, then go in. Read some more. Help cook for Krsna, Karma-yoga, Go out on Hari nama, go out on the Internet. Prabhupada manifes discouragement also, but then he would find his fight position and go back out again.
The magic will not be done by you
nor me
nor any living being
the magic will be done by Krsna
when we become pure devotees of Krsna. (16 nice rounds, 4 principles strictly)