AGTSP & to Sri Sri Guru Gouranga.
Hare Krishna Guru Maharaja! He had not written since your Vyasa Puja.
I felt the need to write to record my spiritual process.
I continue my service as a cook at the Fridya party , along with Gopal Bhadra, Syama Rasa and Bhakta Paul. I'm fine with my 16rounds sung in the period of Brahma Muhurta and my 4 regulative principles.
Earlier this year I'm "trying" to give BG Classes twice a month in the temple. I have been very happy to get closer to Prabhupada's books and try to understand that we are not this body and that we are servants of Krsna.
Questions:
- I can not assimilate that Krsna is the SupremeController of all. I have the "false ego" of feeling"sometimes" I handle situations in my life and favorable results are the fruits of my own efforts.
How I can change the "look wrong" to see that my material and spiritual life are the fruits of my ownwork?
Hoping that he's in good health on your travels, says goodbye
Your servant
Bhakta Christian Barrera
Chile
HpS - Srila Prabhupada Ki Jai! Thank you for your association. We are back in USA. Our computer just crashed, screen doesn't work, so we are using Nadulal's. I think you must have been a Yogi in your last life. Then it is natural to do these austerities. So many nice devotees in Chile. Should be easy to feel Prabhupada's presence in their association. We are setting our Calendar for a visit to Chile like in July.
I remember your name, but forget your form, pastimes and associates. Ooof! In general, this cyber world but also at 63 years old you have to associate with people for long time to remember them. Please continue to write and include little bio-data with each letter!
Best way to realize you aren't the controller is to chant Hare Krsna for Krsna well. You will always see that you senses and mind don't do exactly what you want. In your heart you have idea of what is good Japa, Kirtana, but trying to express it is a struggle.
"Oh, Nimai, Oh, Nitai! Please help me to chant Radha Shyama!"
Another thing is that Krsna will give you experiences. Advaita Achayra, will give you experiences to instruct you in you real size! But we have to accept them and let go of illusion and embrace reality!
You have a nice, spiritual name!