pamho, Maharaja, AGtSP!!

Now am taking advantage of your blog, though prefer the intimate times, such as Nityananda's Appearance day in San Jose, nectarian.

Am grateful for any association, even on-line. Just needed to thank you for tolerating my "Grha-disastah's". Seems in any ashram we have trials and tribulations, then in association with the Vaisnava's our problems seem to minimize. Now am restored to again do battle in this existence with sadhana re-charged, so to speak. Keeping on the path of Bhakti is constant till we're back where we belong, once there our position is permanently secure, until then I'm holdin' d' "Mala'.

While biding our time here is the danger and my main concern. Is there a time where fall downs become impossible ? When does Maya become an ally and not our deviator? And in pursuance, is it not greed for this, that too binds?  Please pardon these un-certain quandries from a puffed up servant, who feels entitilement for their advancement and is over-confident in their practice. I'm sure I'm just waiting to get smashed, but that too can be blissful, it just confirms our relationship with the Supreme. I'll take anything I can get!

Guess the real question is; At what point does devotional service become spontaneous and does it become infallible? ... ( I want it now!! )

your unqualified servant in training,

caitanya caritamrta das, das anu das